sorry for being nonexistent.
will come back soon.
there's just so much going on in my life right now.
and blogging is not up there in my priority list. for now.
i love you all <3

oh here are some pretty pics i'd like you all to see
open your eyes

 

 

 

xxx

I like to click through the 'Net

I'm browsing the cutest online dress store (: The Dress911 online store devotes itself to indie fashion and lovely retro dresses in all prints, shapes, and colours! I've already found a few I love:

Not to mention the chic, vintage-looking accessories are currently making me drool:

Dress911 is Canadian! How awesome, eh?
They ship to the US and Canada for just $7, flat-rate.

I'm ordering two pairs of leggings right now (first time actual online shopping!) and I've got an idea of how to pay: either mail cheque, or bank transfer (since they're based in Canada, I can actually just transfer the money -- thank goodness because I don't have a credit card). But the only thing I'm worried about is that they might not fit me well! I'm very short (5 ft 1", I think) and thin as well, so sometimes jeans or leggings fit looser and will bunch up around my ankles. I absolutely hate that! It makes my outfit AND myself look bad. So that's why I have high expectations for my bottom-wear.

Anyway, I've messaged them about my concerns and they are going to measure the leggings for me (:

Good service, great clothing, awesome styles! Umm, can I repeat how much I like the site? Lol.

Alright. I need to log off. Or else my mother will come in here and... yeah.


ps. Sorry for all the drama last night, guys.
Some days I feel a certain way. I don't want to feel angry or upset, but I can't hold it back.

Thanks for reading. xxx

all the choices in the world... couldn't get you off.

disappeared off the face of the blogosphere for a while there. had some essence of fun this week. i'm happy to be back. (:

i actually took some time last night to half-decorate my room. it looks less... boring.

outfit:

Forever 21 blazer (flower pin's my own), Sirens liquid leggings, American Eagle heels.

it was a comfy outfit. i know people say this a lot, but it's true, i dress for comfort about 99.99% of the time.

the Chronicles of Bunny.

I don't know how i find the time to take all these pictures... oh wait, i do. Procrastination Time.

I thought this was pretty cute hehe. can't remember where i found it tho! wonder why they didn't put the Kermit outfit onto here hahaha.

Oh, i've got some really good advice for you kids there:

zebraandmeerkat.tumblr.com

Have a great long weekend, lovelies.
xxx

ps. will be giving out an award to some of my favourite, and most inspirational, bloggers soon!

streetlight people.

hey there, guys.

zebraandmeerkat (tumbler)

first of all, i'd like to thank everybody for their advice and lovely words and inspiration. i really enjoy the blogging community, because it allows different people to come together and create something that can be viewed and interpreted all over the world. and it allows people to let themselves out for a little bit, show a little of themselves that they might not normally do so to people they know in real life.

what i mean is, i feel a little better every time i read your comment, and every time i post something.

oh, and every time i read your blogs!

second of all, i can't believe how creative some people are, you know, hahaha. some bloggers find the most amazing things that they share to the rest of us, and it makes me feel as if i've almost reached a piece of wisdom or something close to enlightenment.

anyway, i don't want this blog to turn into Depressing-Rant-AngryAsianGirl-ville, so here's something that cheered me up this week!

Yes, an award yippeeeeee. (Does this make me a little shallow? Oh, i hope so. i'm done with all of the 'deep' and 'depressing' for now... Save those rants for my journal, and my STORYUNTITLED.doc! haha)

This awesome award was given to me by Jessica of aberrant moda! She's such an amazing person, and I think you should all go visit her blog to see for yourselves. (Yes, she was the one who sent me that sweet strappy top, and mix CD!) She has the boy, the clothes, the new job, and the photoshoppin' skills to entice you all. Trust me (: I just love reading her posts.

So, here goes:

The Rules

1: Copy and paste the above button onto your blog/website.
2: Answer the questions below.
3: Pass on to bloggers you love, notify them about being tagged.

1. Who is your style icon?
Hmmm I think i'd have to say a mix of Zooey Deschanel and Taylor Momsen. basically cutesy but rocker?.. i dunno, you tell me!

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2. What's your favorite socialite lit book?
Well, I spent the former years of high school reading Gossip Girl just because some other girl was reading it. She actually thought it was good. I thought it was horrific. A complete summary of the entire series, consisting of 10+ books is this: Nate sleeps around, goes back and forth between Serena and Blair, and Chuck plays with a monkey. Dan and Vanessa are boring, boring, boring people, without anything to do for the entire series. Nothing interesting happens at all. Considering Gossip Girl's the only socialite series I've read, I'll say it's my favourite, but really... No. (The show is a lot better. Although the Season 3 finale was... a little overdramatic... don'tcha think, Hollywood writers?)

3. Favorite party theme?

The theme where you invite close friends and just hang out for an entire day and night.

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4. Go to Halloween Costume?

either Minnie Mouse or nerd. (I bought a pair of mouse ears in Disneyland, so I overexploit them for any occasion hehehe.) As for nerd, I'm always a nerd, so I don't really have to dress differently. KIDDING, GOSH. I just wear my red suspenders, my nerd glasses, tuck my shirt in, and wear socks with sandals --  good to go!

5. Extravagance you can't live without?
TV shows like Vampire Diaries, Gossip Girl, and Glee. Although... I have survived a whole week without watching a single one of those shows... But the next week, I was back to it, and was hella confused.

6. Living Person(s) you admire?
My grandparents, for sure. They currently live with my parents, my sister, and me, so it's a large family in one house. I rarely see my parents though, so it's never crowded (: Anyway, my grandparents are taking care of my baby cousin (she's 1 and a half!) right now and it's so fun to watch her interact with my grandparents. But she's the biggest copy cat! Whenever my sister, Jenny, is trying to do homework (in front of the TV, I might add, which is ridiculous... though I do it too...), my baby cousin runs towards her with a pencil and tries to scribble on whatever Jenny is doing. It's so funny. Oops, getting off-topic.

7. Greatest Fear?
Being mugged on the streets. And the dark, after watching a super scary film. A public bathroom when it's empty, because that's usually where the main character gets brutally murdered by an undead spirit in a horror film.

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8. Trait you deplore in yourself?
I procrastinate way too much for my own good. It's the reason why I sleep for 4 hours on weekdays, and spend countless hours on the Internet or in front of the TV. And the reason why my life is so uninteresting, and why I don't go out as much as I should.

9. Which talent would you most like to have?
To be able to write so beautifully and powerfully, without even trying, that it makes people cry.

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10. Greatest Achievement?
None yet... Working on it.

♥ ♥ ♥ I'd like to pass this award onto some really cool bloggers, people who really inspires me to keep this blog:
Andy and Rachel. They've already received this award, but I think they deserve it twice over :D

Aina from My Norwegian Country Theater. A very good friend. (:
Supergirl from The Onion. She's wonderful. Her posts are inspiring to read, and funny too.
Isabel from Hipsters Musings? Creative outfits, and posts with wisdom.
Mathilde from Mathilde's Daily. Tres chic! J'adore ta creativite.


I hope everybody has a great week.

I think i need to take a little break and just do something cool this week. Other than planning my outfits and watching TV all the time...

TOTD: Do something inspiring.

there's something wrong with me. my gut clenches up, my throat closes, i lose words and thoughts and touch. i feel tired, and tried.

i really need somebody to talk to, but most of the time, i listen. i feel as if i'm too selfish, too focused on my own problems. i try to open up to my closest friends, but i can't find the right words to say, and i stop in midconversation to say, "i'll talk to you later" and then not bring up the subject again. for days afterwards, i'll try to talk to them about other things, and inside, i feel as if they're judging me either for talking or not talking. i just can't win.

i wish i could talk to my parents, but they're just children. my father's whole life consists of his business, which is flailing right now. he is a fish out of water, always pissing people off, always forgetting about things that have happened, always forgetting my name. i know it might be such a little thing to get mad about, but for once, i'd like to hear him call me by the right name. the only other daughter he has is my sister, and she's 9. how can he confuse her with me and me with her? it's ridiculous.

and my mother, my mother.

she shows no compassion, no emotion towards her own family, and then expect us to comfort her, to understand what she's going through, to drop everything and wait on her, wait up for her, wait all night for her. and guess what-- i'm tired of waiting. i'm the one trying to talk, trying to explain, making sure she's comfortable, making sure she enjoys spending time with her family, making sure she's actually listening to me when i'm asking her a question. making sure she buys food.

i love my grandmother. she's strong and powerful. my grandfather is two men in one person. when i look at them, i wonder how they could have brought someone like my father into this world.

i wonder if i'm related to my parents at all.

sometimes i feel so in tune to my own feelings, and other times, i feel so lost. i don't know why i feel this way, i wish i didn't, i wish i could be happy all of the time. and people assume i am happy. i don't know why, but i'm the "happy one".

i try so hard to be happy and perfect.

"conspiracy dress" - style stalker; chic & the city

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pearls of wisdom

there's so much more i want to say, but maybe not right now.

g'night.

use pictures to tell a story instead.

hey there! a couple outfit posts.
today:

i like my bunny. we have this love-hate relationship goin' on. Bunny thinks i'm too possessive. To that, I say, "Hell NAH, B."

last week:

what i'm wearing

this is my bestie!

this is what we did on our spare: watch little baby grade 9's in their P.E. classes. Us Gr. 11's don't need to do it anymore! All I remember from gym was being sweaty constantly and having to kick around balls.

Our school is quite small. about 800 - 1000 students only.

(tried to channel Taylor Momsen today, with the red leather jacket, ripped jeans, dark eyeliner and messy hair. i don't know if i've succeeded. i need to buy more rebel wear and make up my own rockstar style.)

tomorrow, red lipstick and... hmmm... i need some inspiration. maybe i can dig through my closet and find some item of clothing or a pair of heels that i haven't worn in a while, and just slap together an outfit!

now i need to go study for the english vocab quiz! oh, and read "Maxim Maximych" of A Hero Of Our Time by Lermontov. what else: Bio worksheets (hate bio), Chem review, Math hw, and... that's right, get started on my Extended Essay. All 4000 words due in a month. Whoop-dee-doo.

Love you!

ps. what did i do on mother's day? nothing at all. i feel a bit bad. my mother and i are having a little outing on thursday hopefully to make up for it. i love her, i do. sometimes it's just a bit hard to be the grownup, that's all.

my father gave her a few bars of crappy chocolate. way to go, dad. way to go.