extreme

I want to go there.

Short post for today. Actually, my agenda...

SUNDAY:
11:00am -> Value Village
11:30am -> meet up with dance team
12:00 - 2:00pm -> rehearsal
2 - 4:30pm -> church
5 - 6:00pm -> church choir
6:30pm - ? -> meet up with Leo Club kids to make a film to present at assemblies

MONDAY - FRIDAY:
Present film and Leo introductions at Gr. 8 and Gr. 10 assemblies.

TONIGHT (Sunday morning o_o):
- Chem textbook questions
- French worksheets [geographical prep., review of P.C.] & read textbook pp. 44-47
- Math worksheets [handout, exponential growth] & Math tests WED + FRI
- start/finish reading One Day in the Life of Ivan Denisovich for English
- write Leo introductions for assemblies
- work on Extended Essay

MONDAY MORNING:
- Bio class @ 7:30am

what a day (:

[edit: I've posted up some answers to your burning questions on my Formspring! I answered one about my decision to start a blog, and another on how I created my header!]

I slept at 6 am yesterday, and was woken up by a phone call from the public library at 12 noon. Then my bestie, Flora (whom you probably all know and love dearly -- but not as much as I LOVE HER :D) texted me to come help her dye her hair "golden brown".

I rushed over madly (i.e. took about an hour and a half to fully wake up, get dressed in something comfy, and put on makeup) with my work uniform in a Roots bag (work @ 4:30 - 9:30) and a pair of fake Converse upon my feet.

Here are a few pics of me trying to help her. In the end, she gave up on me and told me she'd do it. Lolz.

... and TADA, here we are:

... more importantly, here's Flora's new hair colour:

My outfit for church on Sunday (yes, I've been going to church again! surprising, n'est-ce pas?):

I bought these heart-printed shorts, alongside other items, from Crew Heaven (facetrading Facebook group) and was thoroughly disappointed when I received the batch. For one thing, a sweater I bought did not look anything like the model's sweater, and I feel as if I've been completely ripped off.

Also, the quality of this pair of shorts is terrible!

And though the shorts were only priced at $13, my own mother remarked that I could've gotten a better quality pair of shorts directly from China for about $2 Canadian = =

So yup, that is my Facetrading horror story. Okay, it's not so bad. From afar, the shorts look cute. Though the fabric is rough and cheap, at least it looks wearable. Sigh. I'm thinking of DIYing it a bit to make it a bit more tapered. Dunno how I will achieve that since I suck at everything DIYish.

I'm sending out my love to all you lovelies!
{{2 more weeks before school! I need to get started on editing my Extended Essay and reviewing Chem and Bio! Start the Stressed-Out-It's-School-Again countdown!!!}}

Lol, funny thing: Flora and I walked into Starbucks to get some coffee before I had to bus to work, and two of my classmates were there as well -- typing away on their laptops, across from each other on a table. Very hard workers, these two. Also, they're both Asian, but that's beside the point. (; Hehe, I can make Asian jokes. So it reminded me that I had a LOT of homework to complete before the start of school. AND I have to go and take my L test for driving soon! Will be v. v. busy... ):
xxx

this beat is so funny i made it with their money

Hey guys good news: school's over in two days! i'm so glad. just one more psych exam and bio test :/ then gr 11 is over! i can't wait for senior year. but most of all, i can't wait for summer!

i'm sorry i haven't been writing my story. i read my older posts and think how silly i sound. this always happens. whenever i put off writing for a long time, then happen to read whatever it is that i wrote, i always think i sound so pretentious that i stop writing completely. and i guess this is it for that. maybe i'll write something new, something different.. so keep reading.

these past couple weeks have been one presentation after an exam after an essay, on and on and on. i'm a bit cranky cuz i've been getting less than 6 hours of sleep continuously. i can't even formulate the right words to say in my head, so talking to people have been awkward.

Wearing: Garage Clothing sweatshirt, Mimi Mcqueen shorts, Lower East Side wedges (Payless)

Alright I'll leave you guys with this vlog i made out of haste haha

use pictures to tell a story instead.

hey there! a couple outfit posts.
today:

i like my bunny. we have this love-hate relationship goin' on. Bunny thinks i'm too possessive. To that, I say, "Hell NAH, B."

last week:

what i'm wearing

this is my bestie!

this is what we did on our spare: watch little baby grade 9's in their P.E. classes. Us Gr. 11's don't need to do it anymore! All I remember from gym was being sweaty constantly and having to kick around balls.

Our school is quite small. about 800 - 1000 students only.

(tried to channel Taylor Momsen today, with the red leather jacket, ripped jeans, dark eyeliner and messy hair. i don't know if i've succeeded. i need to buy more rebel wear and make up my own rockstar style.)

tomorrow, red lipstick and... hmmm... i need some inspiration. maybe i can dig through my closet and find some item of clothing or a pair of heels that i haven't worn in a while, and just slap together an outfit!

now i need to go study for the english vocab quiz! oh, and read "Maxim Maximych" of A Hero Of Our Time by Lermontov. what else: Bio worksheets (hate bio), Chem review, Math hw, and... that's right, get started on my Extended Essay. All 4000 words due in a month. Whoop-dee-doo.

Love you!

ps. what did i do on mother's day? nothing at all. i feel a bit bad. my mother and i are having a little outing on thursday hopefully to make up for it. i love her, i do. sometimes it's just a bit hard to be the grownup, that's all.

my father gave her a few bars of crappy chocolate. way to go, dad. way to go.

TGIF.

I've posted a LOT this week! I'm actually very proud of myself.
However, I'm not very proud of the fact that I spent the past few days not doing any homework at all, staying up on the computer until 1 am (FACEBOOK! ONLINE GAMES!), and being 40 mins late for choir 3 times in a row. I got approx. 5 hours of sleep last night, and I feel like hell.

Anyway, I'm starting my extended essay for IB (info: click here and here). 3000-4000 words due in June. Shit, right? Right. I also have a Psych internal assessment due on the 27th this month! I've been forced to accompany my school choirs to go to Banff, Alberta for 4 days next week, Thursday to Sunday, and I swear... I'm not going to be able to finish anything. I feel empty and tired and drained, and I haven't even started typing out my EE or IA papers. The more I think about it, the more I don't want to do it. The more I don't want to do it, the more I think I'm not going to be able to pass IB. (If a student fails the EE paper, he/she doesn't get his IB diploma!)

Sorrows aside, here is an outfit:

AND TAKE A LOOK AT THIS:

JEALOUS?! (:

bawayan

TOTD: A bad romance sounds pretty good right about now.

KTHXBAI

ooops sorry for not blogging/being under a rock for a looong time.

So, school. yeah. what can i say? i'm drowning in it? i'm suffocating? i'm being pulled so far apart by it that the molecules inside my body are broken up, causing my body to degenerate? well yes, all of the above.

also, I'M GOING TO IDAHO TOMORROW, BITCHES.

Waking up at 5:30 in the morn', getting dressed for intense, cold weather, sitting on a bus for 7 hours! with other music geeks! i'll be sure to post vids of my vocal jazz group singing for you eager readers out there haha. i'm so excited. my mom packed me 5 oranges and 2 bananas and i told her that i'm not going to eat that many oranges... and she said, strictly, "You have to". So I secretly sneaked two oranges back into the basket and stole some beef jerky and granola bars from the cupboard... MUAHAHA i'm an evil child.

I feel a lot better mentally these days... The schoolwork keeps piling up, but I think I've gotten immune to the stress. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/International_Baccalaureate <- All about IB, and what us IB students have to live up to... and ultimately, die for. I hear this quote a lot: "I wanna die" on Facebook, in msgs, in the hallways. Even I say it, albeit unconciously, maybe about 28 times a day.

"I think... Therefore, IB."

x o x o

obscurity is not the cure.

some days
it would slowly

climb in through the opened windows
in this dark house you used to live in

with the crawling ivy
up and down the brick walls

like dementia patients
sitting upon stone boulders.

other days
it stood waiting

outside your closed door
and hummed a sad song as it waited.

i would always be that song,
i understood that

i understood that
i would always be that song.

but one day
it never came

it never climbed again
or waited or hummed

and the light turned off
within your house

for a long, long time
and the song was forgotten.


but somehow
even after all these terrible years


awful, stupid, horrific
years


after all the torture, the strings, the terrifying silence
you still remembered how


it would hold you as
a candle held its flame


and whisper your promise to me
only when i was asleep.


it had no beginning,
no end


an infinite
definitive


sequence
that could not be explained.


you could not explain it
and it did not come back


to explain itself
to you.


i understood that
no one would ever sing that song again.


no one would ever sing that song again,
i understood that.

[a/n: c'est le mienne! i haven't written anything new (or good) so here's a poem i wrote a couple months back.]

Old Navy shirt, Garage acidwash jeans, Sirens heartnecklace, mom's leather jacket (i know.. i really need to go and buy my own = =)

Oh, MERDE -- tomorrow is school once again. Great. I really hate the first day back. I'm going to have such trouble trying to sleep early, and waking up at 6 am! I slept at 5 am last night (erm, morning)! Well, at least I've got my Hamlet essay done, and most of my Bio study guide. But I haven't even begun to tackle the French questions. I hope Mme Sinclair forgets about it... She forgets a lot of things. Once, she lost half the class's tests and their scores too.

Pretty stuff:

jak & jil

I honestly can't remember where I got these pictures from, but if a photo is yours, please tell me so I can credit you!